Returning to Innocence

Returning to Innocence - Page 181 from my memoir - “Field Notes on Letting Go - a memoir of truth-seeking, healing and personal freedom.”

Understanding my truth has been my life’s challenge. I scoured for clues, gathered the pieces, and fit them together, like a riddle, like a puzzle. And there was tremendous resistance because part of me didn’t want to know the truth. It took a lot to accept that things were not as I believed. I was given a role to play and played it so well that I tricked myself. I believed my own fictional storyline. I was a char- acter in a fictional play. Why would I want to excavate that? Why not just remain ignorant to it and move forward? If I wasn’t the character cast in the play, then who was I?