A Truthful life
An aching back and tummy aches brought me to a place of rest. It was different this time. I stopped ignoring the pain. Mostly because it didn’t work anymore. I couldn’t push through and ignore this time. I felt my aches. I felt the pain and discomfort and rested. I even had to pull back on my daily yoga practice - the foundation of my health. And today, I just stayed in bed. I started realizing that I never acknowledged my pain. Pondering it - I couldn’t. There was no way out of it then - so pushing through was the only way - pretending it didn’t hurt. But it’s behind me now. It’s safe to feel - and it’s as if my body is making up for it. I can now feel the pain that I endured in my childhood. I could feel it now. I had to feel it now. I honor you little Janet. I hear your voice. I feel your pains. It’s okay to release your anger now so we can let it free - heal - forgive - and be at peace. And forgive yourself - forgive myself.